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last time i updated, it was almost 1 year ago.

time flies, and i don't know why i am blogging now.

time as a person on the ground feels good.

i mean my status in the army, my rank.

when you are down there,

there are no expectations,

there are no responsibilities,

nobody cares even if you made a mistake.

because you are DOWN there.

but when you are UP there,

everything is the opposite.

i kinda decided to not take up any leadership positions in army.

i regretted abit here and there, complained here and there, but well,

i think that i did the right thing, after 4 years of high profile leadership posts (exaggerated)

things down here are really different. its what i mentioned three paragraphs ago.

i feel relaxed more than ever, and i'm not obliged to do anything nor live up to any expectation

or call of duty.

but then i start to question the abilities of the people UP there.

especially, the one all the way UP there

i don't know how to describe the problem with him.

he is by the book,

and nothing can bend it.

he is a perfectionist,

and he keeps seeking it.

and lastly he is inflexible,

and he does not change.

i mean, from where we are, can't he be more flexible?
everyone else is, except him! but i can't say its because of his roots cause there are others

with the same roots as his!

he gives one little, tiny rule that we must abide by, like sewing of a badge

i mean, come on, its just a badge, and its up to us whether we want to show it or not right?

and at every opportunity, he will go around and pick.

WHAT THE FUCK IS THERE TO PICK AND PUNISH FOR A BADGE!?

next,

i really pity two fellas , and now recently, another two more.

the first two are holding two appointments together and they:

1) participate in every activity

2) prepare all the shit for EVERY activity

3) do ALOT of last minute shit because of your lack of advance warning/notice (insight)

4) do NOT complain to you at all

5) have to rack their brains every week for something that is coming two weeks later

AND AT TIMES WHEN THEY ARE SO SHAG YOU STILL SCOLD THEM!?

i mean, cut them some slack man,

they are already having two of the most problematic appointments (with the most shit to do) and you do not see this problem cos of you being UP there,

and you NEVER asked, staying in your office all the time

and as an office-r DO NOTHING to lighten their burden.

AND YOU SAY YOU WOULDNT RECOMMEND FOR MY MATE TO BE AN OFFICER WHEN HES TRYING TO SEEK A CAREER OUT OF IT!

so what if he's not competent yet, people change and grow better! (except you)

it's like dousing your birthday cake candle with water before you can make a wish and blow it.

SAF

Serve And Fuck-off

thanks to people like you.

i'm just venting my anger here, pardon me

it's been kept since august last year

[yisong]