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let's talk about firsts,

many meanings to the word, but i shall share my understanding of it.

afterall, i've been surrounded by 'firsts' and other meanings of it since the feb last year.

let's explore,

FIRST, as a noun, first in competitions, first in the line

FIRST, as an adjective, first to arrive, first stage

FIRST, as an adverb, for the first time

many more :\

well, let's talk about first as a noun,

first in a race, first in ranking..

we all want to be winners. i'm sure. even if you don't show it, you mean it and you crave for it deep inside. like "oh man, how i wish i won so that "

but very sadly, only ONE can win ( that's why there's this thing "1st" ) and well, if you didn't. hmm, too bad, try again next time. personal experience? plenty. in army, during BMT, UDC, my Det came in 2nd. Lost by 3 minutes. Best time in my platoon, but not in the entire company. Anything good happened after that? No, maybe a pat in the back for doing so well in the platoon, thats all. The winners? all the glory, all the limelight, all the attention. my friend posted online, 2nd, 1st in the line of losers. how true, i thought. we pushed ourselves so hard and so bad and when we got 2nd, we got consolations, nothing more. "oh, it's just a competition for fun", "don't worry, you are still the best in our platoon", "the other team won because...". but now after looking back to that experience, winning was pretty much everything (at least in camp, not outside..okay maybe abit) you get to brag about it until now, people know you for it, instructors recognise your efforts bla bla... so who says winning ain't everything?

Winning best combat unit, 25 times, 8 times in a row. thats a feat, everybody recognises it. everyone in the world acknowledges the fact that we are special. so many units competing for it at the same time every year. is all the effort worth it? i really want to know how the best inf unit feels and those who fell short of the awards. don't they put in the same effort as well? aren't they dedicated as well?( this i really can't say, sadly ) its the same as the previous experience, just that i got the better side of it. but once you win it, (i know cos i felt it), its like you conquered the country, you brag about it, you laugh at others, you mock them (of course, all for fun), you keep harping about it...man, the feeling was great the moment the results were announced in that cookhouse. exhilirating (opps?), overwhelming, satisfying, over the moon. and, we tend to forget about the others. don't we?

hmm, tbc, brainwaves abit sot now, and i gotta go back...