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as the year pass, i see more 21st parties going by...

yes, i have turned 21.

by the end of year, i would have died,

not the end of the world, but because of jealousy.

'why can't mine be as fun?'

'where are all my photos of my 21st?'

'why were there only 6?'

'how come the people whom i thought closest to me, were the ones who didn't wish me?'

and 'why wasn't i invited?'

very materialistic thoughts of me, but i guess these were what i really wanted?

in fact i didn't even mind the lack of presents, honestly.

but i mind the lack of wishes, especially those who i regard dear to me.

these thoughts just keep popping out of mind.

whenever i feel down, these thoughts know the moment to drag me down further.

dark thoughts.

poker face i give, but, i guess i always hide my true feelings..

2012 please fly by quickly...

[yisong]